Panic attacks are exactly that – attacks. Attacks in which you are both perpetrator and victim. They are sudden and violent and crippling. Once they stop, they make no sense. How can you justify an attack that leaves you crying uncontrollably, beating yourself up, temporarily unfamiliar with reason and sense? How can you explain the tiny insignificant thought or event that caused it? Best not to try. Best just to hope that by morning the physical effects have faded, that the eyes are no longer red and swollen, that the facade can go neatly back in place.